So I finally understand the verse that says “So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today”. Matthew 6 verse 34.
Last Thursday my boy had a dry cough and didn’t sleep well which means I didn’t sleep well. Allowed Adjustment budgets stress get to me and had a disagreement with a colleague . Now Back to Phopho I nebulized (not sure if this is still english 😛 ) him gave him telfast and we slept okay the following night. Saturday went to a baby shower in the rain then Thando came back with a bad cough, nothing breast-milk , nebulizer and a little prayer can’t fix. Yesterday Phopho woke up with a fever and stomach cramps and only wanted yogurt for dinner. I found myself asking google in the middle of the night if I should be deworming my son 😯 #MommyStruggles. This morning I woke at 5 am and I was excited that Thando was fast asleep so I could go to boot camp. Guess what? the car would not start. There goes my perfect morning workout . Moral of the story, if you wait for a perfect day it may never come. We have to find something good in each day.
A few weeks ago I was disappointed because I was not shortlisted not for one, not two but three director posts I applied for. We have been praying for a breakthrough in the business and a promotion for me and I kept telling Sweet-One and encouraging him that things will change I mean they have at some point right?
But when things didn’t work out the way I thought they would I was not okay, emotionally, spiritually and to make things worse I was physically not well. Sweet-One organised a date just to put a smile on my face but spiritually I was knocked out didn’t even wake up with a song :-(. The business is growing we got a few new clients during this period, he got an offer that will boost us significantly. I got a performance bonus, why am I still down?
Because I think I know how and when God is going to answer me. I want an easy life and I know I am not the only one. In my perfect world I get an hour of uninterrupted devotion and prayer, kill a bootcamp session, get my perfectly healthy babies ready without tantrums and a husband who finds time to open the door for me even when we are running late :P, and yes I want to get along with everyone.
That is not how things work in reality. The truth is when I focus on the how often my creche going toddler gets sick, or how my qualified sister is not working, or what my husband is not doing instead of what does I become miserable. We will never get to celebrate the good things that happen in our lives if we can’t take our eyes of what we don’t have.
”Give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you”.1 Thessalonians 5 verse 18. In ALL circumstances, this means that there is always something to be grateful for. It is usually grateful people who seem to have lots to be grateful for. I believe this is because they choose to elevate the good and down play the bad hence they enjoy life more.
I hope you can join me in looking at life from a different lens – the grateful lens. Let us choose not to worry about tomorrow, and just deal with today’s challenges . You can either look at life as a series of bad or good experiences but we all get both, you decide what you want to magnify. The decision you make will determine whether you enjoy or endure life.
Despite what you may think No one has a perfect life. I’m complaining that I didn’t get the director post someone else has lost their job. I am desperate for a full night’s sleep someone else wishes they had one child to keep them up at night. My struggle may not be your struggle but we all have things we wish could change in our lives and we all have things to be grateful for. So choose gratitude. Do not worry about tomorrow just enjoy the blessing you see with each day.